Friends for Life

You know what I hate most is when I'm with that guy! It's because I always want to fall but he's not willing to catch me. Every time we go out together it feels like, I wanna treat him more special than he expect me to do. I wanna show him that though we're just friends, I'm still there for him, that I'm still there to care for him, but it's sad because there are a lot of LIMITATIONS :( lots of bawal and bawal like what the hell! What the hell is wrong if I care too much? I remember the times when he asked me to hug him and I hugged him tight for I know that was the last :( The way he kissed my lips feels like I dont want to end the day. Being with him makes me complete :( He's way to perfect but yeah he'll never be mind again :( I miss his kisses and cares and everything. Oh boy, please lets start again D: i neeed you so badly !

Pain because of Love

I am still questioning why I'm still dropping for you though you found someone new. I wonder why every time I see you, I can't stop grinning. It feels like you complete my day. I sometimes find it weird when I suddenly smile when I retrieve those crazy stuffs we made when there's still "US" and frankly, those things are the ones that makes me weep. I wonder why it takes so much time to bury you. Maybe because we have spent 18 months being together that's why you're hard to release. Honestly, I miss you! I miss the words we used to address to each other, I miss the Babe, Porky and Piglet, Babs, Hun, Elmo, Babywe used to call to each other. I miss everything. Life isn't really worth living for without you. It's really hard to go on if you used to be with someone who made you feel so complete. Sometimes, I suddenly cry because your name suddenly enters my head. I wonder why every time I arouse and slumber you're the only thing that overruns my mind. I constantly ask myself "WHO IS HE IN MY EXISTENCE?" Like, who are you to interrupt my happiness? But I always receive the same response to my question. You know what? It's because I STILL LOVE YOU. I think it would really take so much time for me before I can say the tag "I'VE MOVED ON, I'M HAPPY NOW" But yeah, not now I guess. Maybe soon, I will learn to set free of the things that are not really meant for me, maybe God has someone to give tor me who’s better than you. But don’t worry. I will always cherish you. I will always put our memories in my heart and you’ll always have the biggest space in my heart.

LOVE is LOVE

Okay, so what is this love ? Actually, I never thought I would fall this deep to this guy who really had a big impact in my life. I mean, I did not really expect that I will love him beyond my limits. It's very fun to enter into a relationship, but you shouldn't just think about the positive side but also in the negative side. In a relationship, people experience not just happiness but also sadness. Just like me, I've been through a lot of things. At first we all think that it's filled with love. We make promises with each other, we have time for each other but we really cant avoid to set aside our partners and do other things. There are some instances that, we want to give up, but our hearts wont. This is what we call REAL LOVE.