Friends for Life

You know what I hate most is when I'm with that guy! It's because I always want to fall but he's not willing to catch me. Every time we go out together it feels like, I wanna treat him more special than he expect me to do. I wanna show him that though we're just friends, I'm still there for him, that I'm still there to care for him, but it's sad because there are a lot of LIMITATIONS :( lots of bawal and bawal like what the hell! What the hell is wrong if I care too much? I remember the times when he asked me to hug him and I hugged him tight for I know that was the last :( The way he kissed my lips feels like I dont want to end the day. Being with him makes me complete :( He's way to perfect but yeah he'll never be mind again :( I miss his kisses and cares and everything. Oh boy, please lets start again D: i neeed you so badly !

Pain because of Love

I am still questioning why I'm still dropping for you though you found someone new. I wonder why every time I see you, I can't stop grinning. It feels like you complete my day. I sometimes find it weird when I suddenly smile when I retrieve those crazy stuffs we made when there's still "US" and frankly, those things are the ones that makes me weep. I wonder why it takes so much time to bury you. Maybe because we have spent 18 months being together that's why you're hard to release. Honestly, I miss you! I miss the words we used to address to each other, I miss the Babe, Porky and Piglet, Babs, Hun, Elmo, Babywe used to call to each other. I miss everything. Life isn't really worth living for without you. It's really hard to go on if you used to be with someone who made you feel so complete. Sometimes, I suddenly cry because your name suddenly enters my head. I wonder why every time I arouse and slumber you're the only thing that overruns my mind. I constantly ask myself "WHO IS HE IN MY EXISTENCE?" Like, who are you to interrupt my happiness? But I always receive the same response to my question. You know what? It's because I STILL LOVE YOU. I think it would really take so much time for me before I can say the tag "I'VE MOVED ON, I'M HAPPY NOW" But yeah, not now I guess. Maybe soon, I will learn to set free of the things that are not really meant for me, maybe God has someone to give tor me who’s better than you. But don’t worry. I will always cherish you. I will always put our memories in my heart and you’ll always have the biggest space in my heart.